So I can't go to sleep again today. Thought I felt tired already at 11pm but now it's 1.35am and I am still well awake. Maybe that has something to do with me sleeping till 12 noon today.

Sleepless is one of the worst feeling, when there is a 9.30am requirement where I have to be at work the next day. That itself is enough for me to want to change job.

Too many things in my mind but I don't feel like writing them down. I don't know why I stopped writing. I wonder if I can recover what I have written back in the 90's, well before there was such thing as blogging. One of these days, I should try to.

I am really sick of those spam mails in my mail boxes. Upgrade spamassassin yesterday but it didn't seems to help at all. Do I really have to change email address to get rid of all the spams?

The Naperville Carillon

Today I dragged my wife out for a walk at Naperville Riverwalk. Since the Sun was setting, I chose to park at the the first parking lot we reached, which was the one closest to the Carillon (the bell tower). We saw some people in the tower existing, and seems like they were just given a tour. So I decided to get close and eventually found out they were giving tours to go up. For $2 a person, we were taken up to the midway point by elevator, and then walked up stairs to the very top.

I was amazed by the facts the young tour guide gave us. This is one of the only ten grand carillon in the world. A grand carillon means it has six octaves of bells. And there are only four of them in North America. (I will check out the facts some times).

Thought it was just a short moments, I feel it's a unexpected treat that we get to go up there today. We were able to see all around us, and can even see the light from Chicago.

Parting

Two days ago, I received an email from a good friend, whoes family I have spend many years with after moving to Chicagoland. I have not visited them for some times and only communicated through email a few times. Unfortunately the email was to convey a sad message about the mother of my friend diagnosed with stomach cancer. I am deeply sadden by the news and I still don't know how to response. Suddenly I felt like if my close relatives, especially the older ones are going to leave me very soon. I thought about my own mother, my grand mother who was trying to say the last good bye to me when I visited her last year.

Life on Earth is indeed short. If there is eternity, why are we allowed only such a short time on Earth? Why do we have to go through the grief of parting with our love ones?

I want my friend's mom to be well again. I can only pray and hope, and hope many many more pray along with me...